one morning
humming and shaking 
w/my guts masquerading 
as the eternal flame 
so fuck off im always in pain 
blaming myself as the pencil neck 
architect of my own ache
there is no "inner dialog" just 
the shouting that is me 
desire demanding desire 
demanding i remember every name
but in humming like a shadow 
i could back up off 
evaporate some shame 
& remember just one morning